A rising golf star nearly lost an eye to a wayward ball in an accident.

A young Australian golf star who nearly lost an eye in an accident reveals how his life and career have changed now that he is blind in one eye.

Jeff Guan, 20, said he suffered “unbearable pain” when he was hit by a stray golf ball while playing in a professional tournament in September.

“An instant ringing and pain hit my head and I fell to the ground. The voices sounded quite muffled and the next thing I remember was being taken in an ambulance to the hospital with patches on my skin containing high doses of fentanyl,” Guan said in his statement, according to Sydney Morning Herald.

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There he spent several weeks in the intensive care unit due to the severity of his injuries. Medical officials say Guan will need about a year to fully recover and will not be able to use a golf club for six months. According to the publication, he still has not recovered vision in his left eye.

During his hospital stay and now five weeks later, Guan said a lot of thoughts were running through his mind about the future of golf.

“At night in the hospital I was almost drowning in thoughts about the injury and my future in sports. Not only was I extremely upset by the news, but the whole situation made me depressed and somewhat angry,” Guan said, according to the report. Sydney Morning Herald.

“Anxiety about my future was running through my head. I was completely upset. It came at a huge cost and had a significant impact on me and my family. Why did this happen? How the hell do I get healthy and come back and be the same player I was or even better? I felt empty and lost,” he added.

Despite his possibly permanent injury, Guan said he is not angry with the person responsible for his accident and has not spoken to them at this time.

“They contacted Golf NSW and Golf Australia while I was in hospital but I had no contact with anyone at this stage. I don’t blame anyone at all. It was just a terrible accident,” he said.

Hoping to get his golf career back on track, Guan said if playing the sport is no longer in his future, perhaps coaching could be an alternative.

“These four weeks have been the hardest of my life, but I have become stronger mentally and will be ready to overcome any obstacles in the future,” Guan said.